It's not loneliness if you are the only one I think about by Rachelle Star

I didn't get to publish this poem. Honestly I forgot about it, I was cleaning out my notes in my phone and found it. Lots of feelings, sometimes I really do hate that I have them. But is it so wrong that someone could actually make me feel good again? Is that a crime to want to see where it goes? See if I could make him happy? It just feels so right. I haven't felt something like that, little voice in your head, saying go for it. I'm trying to go for it. Hopefully he lets us go for it too.

How did you do it?
How did you break in?
How did you do it?
How did you make me want to feel again?
Hard to breathe,
I look at you and you are everything I need,
You say you are bad,
But what I see is a man,
A man trying to find something but not knowing how to look,
A man scared of what he might find and realize it's been there for this whole time.
There you go,
Pushing away,
These feelings that won't go away,
It hurts,
How did you do it?
Why does it hurt?
People are expendable,
Except you,
How could you let this happen?
You are all that I wanted,
Don't look at your faults,
I can't see them,
I just see you,
The man,
Someone who did it,
Someone who crashed right through,
Someone who didn't even mean to,
The man who couldn't see my faults,
That someone who could only make me forget,
A man who loved me just right and didn't even know it,
A man who I will never have,
Because he didn't want to know it,
He didn't want to realize,
...I could every well... Fall for him.

By Rachelle Star