Always Second Place - Rantings

You know what really frustrates me? The fact that I am in actually good woman that wants somebody to share moments or if it comes to it my whole life. When I am in a relationship I give my all even before the relationship I still give my all because I want them to know  that I am 100% in whatever we are doing because I believe that there may be a possibility between us. But what really frustrates me is the fact that I'm always picked second,  I am always number two when it comes to other girls and to men that I like.  Every single time I have been overlooked and I don't understand it. I just wish for once that someone would choose me for once.  Pick me first. Because it always seems like when they choose someone else they never get what they want and I know this is a little  conceited of me but I know that if they had just picked me first they would've gotten everything they wanted and more.  I know I'm not perfect but good woman, that wants to love someone and be their best friend,  and I don't deserve that. I don't deserve to be taken for granted, or looked as an option.  You see when I like you, when I really like you and I'm giving you the time of day in my busy life and I am making time to text you, to see you, and want to hang out with you because you mean something to me.  Because I don't fool around with my feelings and my emotions. I don't just think of you as an option or anyone that I have ever liked as a matter of fact as an option. I picked them they were my choice at that time.  So I'm just saying if I am giving you the time of the day don't fuck it up like the others have.  Even if you've done stupid shit and maybe you have taken me for granted and maybe wasn't the best man at one time and I'm still giving you the time of day please,  don't waste it. If we have chemistry and you let it just flyby and that's not fair to me or to you for not giving us a chance.  You're probably thinking this is just rantings of a crazy woman because one man harmed her but you're wrong they have all harmed me in someway and maybe I harmed them or maybe they came out unharmed or maybe I was the one that came out clean.  It happens, that is life and I get that. All I know is that a good person should never be taken for granted and should definitely not be in second place.  Shouldn't that person win at least once? All I want to do is do whatever I can to make you happy and make you content that's all I want to and somebody to do the same for me.  So if you did get a second chance or even a first, why not just go for it?  You might find yourself winning with me by your side both of us coming in first place.