"I think eighth grade has been the best year of my life. No one this year has been mean to me and the one's that were mean everyday just don't even talk to me [anymore]. This was the year I lost most of my weight and I am pretty. People can't talk shit about me. I'm still quiet, and one things changed, I've gotten all straight A's this year. I love my homebase teacher, Mr. Bohland (he's syko). He is a really good pre-algebra teacher. I've gotten straight A's in his class.
HB Mr. Bohland
1st Mr. Bohland - Pre-Algebra
2nd Ms. Kalal - Science
3rd Mrs. Friend - Yearbook
4th Mrs. Friend - Yearbook
5th Mrs. Blomquist - Social Studies
6th Mrs. Montgomery - Language Arts
HB Mr. Bohland
My family life is a lot better than a lot of my friends. I have a loving mommy and a annoying (but I love him) grampa.
My friends are Nicole (Nicola - bff);Vicky (Victoria) (bff); Hope
Sixth grade was one of the years I was still dealing with my gramma's death and skool and people did not help. People made fun of me my whole life and I had enough I bullied kids thinking it would ease my pain but it didn't and thought it would make people not make fun of me but it didn't it only got worse.
Seventh grade was when I started losing weight. I was quiet and hid behind my hair which hid more than my face, it hid my feelings. I dressed like a boy; I didn't really bully anyone that year. Suicide thoughts ran through my head around the end of the skool year.
6th and 7th grade was not all that bad its just I was sick of living and people not caring about what they said to me. It hurts to feel that.
I guess thats why I listen to people and try to help them because I know pain mentally. And why I have weird friends that have problems at home and do bad things.
This year (2006) in May I went to Cabo San Lucas, Mexico and went to RIU Palace - Resort Hotel (four star hotel) me and my mom's room # was 1047 it was awesome I hope to never forget.
I think I'll be graduating high skool. Getting straight A's and having a wonderful life. Have a scholarship to college and have my dreams come true. Be the same inside but different on the outside (beautiful, sexy and smart) have a boyfriend, be popular and weird.
Love ya,
Rachelle Star
Time finished 2:28pm
Date Monday, May 22, 2006"
It is sort of crazy to read this again, especially the ending, I had such high hopes for life 8th grade and I am really happy I did, because the rest of my life before that, I didn't look forward to anything and I was sad all the time.
But if I could write to her (my 8th grade self). I think she would be more than proud. This is essentially what I would write to her. And I think everyone should do this write a note to yourself, put it away and then forget and find it one day, read it and see how much has changed.
"Dear my 8th grade self,
I am so glad that you made it through all those things that you just merely touched on in your letter that bothered you. I am glad you made it this far. But just so you know, you graduated high school in 2010, and you got almost all straight A's and graduated with a GPA of like 3.8, you had a pretty wonderful high school experience and choosing drama as your elective was the best thing you ever did for yourself. You got more than one scholarship to college and you even got mostly A's there too, with a GPA of 3.7 and graduated with Magna Cum Laude with a Theatre education degree. You don't have a boyfriend right now (it might happen soon), but you have had a few. I would say that over all you are pretty "popular" and like to go out with your friends. I will admit that you probably are a bit strange still but that is perfectly okay! And the one thing I know you wanted to be was beautiful, sexy and smart, just like the drawings you used to draw and hope you would be like. You are all those things and your brain thinks you are too. You have confidence now and shine wherever you go because you always strive for the best. But just so you know something big has changed since then, your favorite thing to wear, are dresses and you love doing everything girlie like nails and makeup. You go to the gym and can do so much that you weren't able to do then. I am proud of you.
Love,
Your College Graduate Self
Rachelle Star
Sunday, July 6, 2014
Finish Time: 11:46am"
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