To put this in the words of one of my favourite bands... "I am everything I want, I am everything you need, I am everything inside of you that you wish you could be, I say all the right things at exactly the right time, but I mean nothing to you and I don't know why..."
You have literally been that for me... For months. The moment I met you, and we shared that night. I wish we would have met on better terms because my heart just wants to fall for you. My heart wants to love you but you have made yourself so clear that it's just not in the picture.
Trying to go away from you has only made me regret it more and more. God, I wish you just wanted me. I wanted you four months of this. And it keeps getting better and I hate you for that. Why do you have to be so fucking cute? Literally in everything you do... Why can't I just hate you for this. Hate you for making me fall for you.
It's my own fault. I fell for someone again. Who just doesn't want me. The person who has turned into one of my good friends and lover... Just can't take me.
I didn't think this would hurt so much. I didn't think I would start to fall or get invested but here you are and I just can't get you out of my heart.
I guess it's better to have loved than lost... But I just hate always losing. But I'm so scared of losing you and getting close to you at the same time.
The fact is... I might actually... Could possibly, almost, practically... Love you
But sadly, you broke my heart.
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