Confused Emotions

Confused Emotions
My Character's name: StarletMy Character wants: ANSWERS

I still remember that day – that day you were taken from the world.
It's like a bad dream that keeps repeating in my head.
I know I can't really get answers from you but I just wish I could.
O I hope you can hear me, from the heavens above...... I wish I could just see you again – just once that's all I ask.
Ha… I bet people think I'm crazy, because I talk to you, but I really don't care anymore......
…But, I just wish, I could find out why, like why did you have to leave when you did!?! Why did you have to go down the road that you did!?! And why did you promise me that you would always be there for me!?!
I guess you didn't keep that promise, like many other promises you had promised me. You gave me lies that I thought as true!! How dare you, betray me like that!
I loved you with all my heart! You were my best friend!
And just like that you were gone, and I'm there with the family throwing your ashes into the lake…..
But that pain I feel for you, is still with me! That haunting memory of you that I just wish I could forget….
It's been almost six years since you've been gone….
Six years sense you became only a memory…six years…
But that pain of that day is and will forever be with me…

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My main reason as to why I wrote this monologue was:

It's about my Grandma's death, a mix of my emotions, and some of my family's emotions. It is also from another painful part of my life, when my best friend turned everyone against me. These two things happened around the same time so my emotions about them intertwined in this monologue.