Happy

Are you happy what you made me?
A lovely figure dancing in your sight lines,
Smiles lasting only until they are no longer needed,
Feeling the strings dangling down,
My masters hands surround me,
I am naked with my mind blown,
My moves are not mine,
My mind is no longer my own,
Are you happy what you made me?
A Barbie doll in three dimensional clothing,
Smiles that are painted on only to be smudged by time,
Eyes that are created to have false life,
Are you happy what you made me?
Drowning in air,
Living a hollow life,
Always what you wanted me to be,
A college student with no love,
With the ambition that was made to make me fall apart,
Have loneliness made in the parties of faith,
Contricting pain with tears that turn into plastic shards of life,
Have lyrical laughs that cover up the empty veins,
I am not me,
I am just a shadow of what you always wanted me to be,
So I ask you one more time,
Are you happy what you made me?

Flames Of The Heart

Flames of the Heart

By Rachelle * Fernandez

Let it soar,

Let it roar,

Let's go on to another dimension,

Can't you see what I have locked up inside of me?

So full of suspension,

Don't you see how much I care for thee?

If you do not,

Then let me fly and be free,

And say you're no more my loving symphony!

But if you do care for me then let it be known for centuries,

Let it be seen from dusk till dawn,

So loud the whole world can hear!

But if you do not love me,

 Then I am singed like the darkest night,

By the raving flames of my burning heart.

Then sadly I am free,

And I'll try and sing along with someone else's symphony.

Falling Thoughts

Falling Thoughts

By Rachelle Fernandez

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Pulling off the petals,

Hoping you would someday be my new found love,

Wishing of a brighter day,

Hoping for a sooner tomorrow,

Thinking of something new,

I really can't care that much about you?

For you were never really there,

You treated me to well,

I can't deserve you,

You make me smile,

Laugh,

This cannot be truly real,

This must all be a dream,

As I fall in my thoughts of you,

A new reason to think,

For you have to be real,

I couldn't have made you up,

Or is my mind playing tricks on me once again?

  You're all I really wanted,

YOU JUST HAD TO GO AND DIE!

So as I sit here,

Thinking of you,

Wishing of a brighter day,

Hoping to see you just one more time.

Reoccurring Roads

Reocurring RoadsBy Rachelle * Fernandez

On my road i sometimes halt between two roads,
here i stand between two worlds agian,
now i must choose

the first one,
with bare branches an dead grass,
life was nothing on that road,
a gloomy hell,
in the wind you could feel death all around,
there was dark tangles and twisted screams,
and just a sense of isolation,
feeling of great depression.

the road that is on opposite side has a peaceful sense of feeling,
it's lovely in all ways,
green is all around,
laughter and happiness always to found.

now i must choose,
the first one i have gone through once,
was only eight when i went in,
i wanted to get away far from it all,
i did not want to live nor die so i met them half way,
i finally got out at thirteen.

i've chosen the other road also only once,
far different than the other,
i was ready to live,
to come out of the box i was in for so long.

15 now,
now i must choose,
go on the road that held me so long with its deep sadness and depression,
or the road with change and happiness,
now i must choose,
which one shall i choose?

the road in knowing when i am happy tis' the one i choose,
leading my life away from my sadness,
looking towards the future.

Love in Snow

Love in Snowby Rachelle * Fernandez

Snow is love that you can see,
Falls onto rosy cheeks,
Snow is something of a scheme,
To look on into the eyes that you seek.

Love is winter,
Love is all around,
Love is some sort of kidder,
With snowflakes so abound,
Like love snow is such a treat,
Once you find it enjoy it please,Cherish it no matter what as a sweet,
And please no going under siege.