I haven't been stable in a while and it keeps feeling like I am falling off a cliff and trying to hold on. But the cliff keeps chipping away.
Working got really hard because I would just not want to do anything. I felt useless and just over all not well. I would smile but everyone could tell I wasn't happy.
I got a tattoo though. It's my first one. I got it done at the place my sister worked at when I was younger. I grew up there essentially. And knew the owners (still do) so I asked his brother, the tattoo artist if he could do one for me. And he said yes. This tattoo means a lot to me. It stands for my uncle who committed Suicide two weeks ago. My cousin who I refer to a lot at my twin got the semicolon tattoo on his wrist as a rememberance but also a reminder. So I told him I would do it too. But it would also be a promise to him. That I would never do that to him. The affects of what happens after a person kill themselves is just insane. But so this would also remind me that God is my light and as long as I have faith I will have it all. And above all else I was made with love and I have love in my life.
I hope everyone is doing well on here. It's been a crazy year. But thank God, I am not calling it quits just yet.
Talk to you later!
